We watch a lot of films together. It's a normal couple thing, it's always felt like a shared activity, and for a long time I assumed we were having roughly the same experience. Then I started asking questions.
During the film - mostly the same, with an asterisk
This bit is actually fairly equal. We're both watching the screen, following the story, having reactions. The film provides the visuals externally so it levels things out in a way that reading doesn't - my partner isn't at a disadvantage when the images are right there in front of both of us.
Except - and this is subtle - I'm doing additional work that I don't think my partner is doing. When there's an off-screen sound, I generate an image of what's producing it. When a character references something from their past, I see it, even though it's not on screen. The film gives me a visual floor and my brain builds above it automatically, without being asked.
After the film - not the same at all
A film I've watched stays with me visually in a way that doesn't stop when the credits roll. Not just as "a memory of having seen it" - as an actual set of images that come back, unbidden, with something close to their original quality. A genuinely beautiful shot will replay itself behind my eyes for days. Something disturbing will do the same, considerably less pleasantly.
My partner watched the same film, went to sleep without incident, and thought about it on and off in a normal, proportionate way over the following week. I thought about it at high resolution for about a fortnight.
The horror film situation
We've mostly stopped watching horror films together, not because my partner is particularly squeamish - they're not - but because the experience is just wildly different for me in a way that doesn't feel worth it. They watch something frightening, feel appropriately unsettled, sleep fine, move on with their life. I watch the same thing and then have it available for involuntary replay at 3am for an indefinite period. The images go into the library and they don't really leave.
This isn't a complaint about horror films specifically. It's just a description of what it's actually like to have an imagination that files everything visually and retrieves it without asking whether you wanted it.
The part that's actually brilliant
A film I genuinely love, though - that's a different thing entirely. The good ones stay with me as visual memories that feel almost like places I've been. I've replayed specific shots from films I love more times than I could count, purely in my head, with no screen involved. Whether that's wonderful or slightly unhinged probably depends on your perspective. I've decided it's wonderful.
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